non carborundum bastardum

Update By Demand

Mon, 05 Jan 2009 21:30:21 GMT

Hi remember me? its been awhile!!
I dont really have a lot of pictures just based around my tattoo, so be prepared for a hodgepodge of images.

EDIT
I thought i should add photos to show its not all on my left side.
And we might as well make it really NSFW

I think thats about it i guess.

This tattoo is being worked on, and always has, by Joby @ Artcore Studios of Seattle.

GG LJ Layouts

Thu, 14 Dec 2006 10:45:34 GMT

Im trying to spice things up a bit and make some GG lj layouts.
But....all these ads are getting in the way.

GRRRRRR.

My First Short Film

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 07:42:31 GMT

I love my roomates more than life itself. These people make me laugh so hard I cry....every single day.

debris

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 09:37:27 GMT

There could be an earthquake. The thought hits me as I’m sitting in a Starbucks on Ventura in Los Angeles. I remember I always thought this when considering or making plans to visit the quaky state. A trip to Disneyland when I was still in middle school was plagued with internal worries that California was going to shake itself to rubble and sink into the pacific. This Starbucks is so popular, I find myself sitting cross-legged in front of a chair, the laptop sitting steadily on the seat. Starbuck’s is never to be hung out in. The only people who hang out in Starbucks, at least as it’s known in Seattle, are tourists and the yuppies. And even then, the rich snobs know that its way cooler to tuck themselves in a place like Café Vita or Bauhaus. Hipsters and scene kids wouldn’t be caught dead in a Starbuck’s….but here it’s the coolest hangout since that diner in Happy Days.
I mean….people wouldn’t even wait around for a table in the cool cafés in Seattle, but I just saw three separate people wait at least 20 minutes each to get a table or even just a lone, uncomfortable wooden chair to sit in. This Starbucks isn’t even big! There are only two chairs that are like living room seats, the music sucks, and people are having some of the most trite, ridiculous conversations ever (yes I’m eavesdropping).

The Best News...

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 16:36:13 GMT

This is the BEST news I've gotten since I was told I was to be a Godsgirl.
My friend Silver wrote me a few days ago exclaiming that Godsgirls wanted her to come down in early January, if possible, to model.
This girl is my best friend, and i love her with all my heart. Im not the best as getting close with girls, but she took my little heart and safetypinned her nametag on it.
SO, when she told me she was to be a Godsgirl also...my whole body smiled.

Anyway, she doesnt shoot for awhile yet, but welcome her to our family. She's my one love.

(photographer not credited?)

Photos by hypnox (hypnox.com)

Taken by me! (Gabrielle Tousignant)

Awwwwwww

Tue, 27 Sep 2005 04:59:07 GMT

I got a kittin!!!!!!!

She's a girl, but I've decided to name her Wallace. I figure I'm so used to having boy cats, that ill keep referring to her as him out of habit. Plus its not like she'll have lady parts anyway.

Gabi, on Flying

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 10:59:30 GMT

I think its perfectly fine that I always think, "I'm giong to die," every time I fly. It's more than natural to recognize your mortality, your spindly bones, stringy muscles and whisps of nerves, and drip after tiny drip of your blood. All of that, shoved into a hulking mass of metal like a sardine, shortly before it hurdles off into the air, hundreds of thousands of miles in the air.
Now let us face it, your meager little body simply doesnt belong here. So if for some reason the big tin encasement proves faulty, you cant really get all nutty, you have to think, "well shit. I'm probably about to see some crazy ass shit, and then I'm going to stop living."

Seriously, if your plane wrecks, you should probably witness all the insane happenings. Remember that you might end up saying these things to yourself, Or maybe youll just say "oh fuck, before your blood starts churning and you passout.

My point is, the idea of flying in an airplane is simply preposterous. If you dont grasp how absurd flying is then you probably deserve to die.

What?!

Yes.

Progress!

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 06:07:44 GMT

mmmmm, 5 and a half hours Saturday
2 hours on Saturday
4 hours on Tuesday

Wouldve done more, but my body was SO worn.

The convention was loads of fun.
NO ONE from here said hi! losers. hahahah
See you next year
(IM BACK IN CHICAGO!!!)

left arm

right arm

collar bone/chest

enjoy kitty kats

Ive expressed my desired plans to one person....

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 04:26:48 GMT

...and he thinks they, I, and everything else, are just "fine".

YOU ARE A GOOF, mister.
And youd better beleive ill do it.

Also...
one point for me.

these are the reasons you like being you.
hah
no one will get that.

im totally going to delete this post within 12 hours.

Photos from Michael Chandler, and my freshly tattooed buttocks

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 20:43:21 GMT

WARNING: My ass, bare ass, is in this lj cut. If youre a family member...please...consider these things.

1. please dont think im getting into porn by posting my butt online. Thats just silly. And if you decide to show my mom (hi mom), let her know that im not doing any sort of porn. And that nudity is okay.
2. If you dont want to see my tush, dont click the link, and you wont. I dont think its weird if you see my tush. Because its just my butt. And its for the sake of showing my tattoo. THE END

To everyone else........enjoy.

The first shoot (Feb 17)

The Second Shoot (March 4th)

photos with the intent of showing my entire tattoo. I had to work up to the bare ass pictures. it was sort of silly for me to do.

New tattoo work.

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 00:19:53 GMT

Its been FOREVER. since late October, actually. But i finally got work done. my left leg. It was amazing.

Things ARENT doomed?

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 01:16:36 GMT

After reading some comments on myspace to someone else, from someone else...that make my heartache, and an embarrasing, shameful find made by Kent Ward, i went a little nuts the other night. I ran home, started choppin' at my mane of hair and then hopped in the bath and ran the hot hot water until all i got was ice cold water.
Somehow things got better, a lot better. Still embarrased, but trying to recover...im still pretty happy.
For those of you who wanted to see the pictures from the shoot ive been raving about (photos by Kent Ward):

Maybe youve heard of him...

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 21:49:19 GMT

...but probably just from me.

He's been the name that floats in my brain when taking a bath, doodling a silly cartoon, and eating pizza rolls with ranch sauce. Romantic huh?

Well...really...no.
Basically i dont think of him that often, and that neurotically, but he is pretty significant. My family is curious. He wants to meet my mom, but of course i didnt tell HER that.
Weird.
Anyway,
He used to be a DJ in NYC and in Denver. He was pretty big. He was even featured in Jive magazine. Its strange, he used to be a thuggums.
Anyway, his name is Avery, Avery Fantom. Occasionally ill call him Mr. Fantom, because its just that ridiculous that i love it.
Moving on, images:
Avery in his thuggin DJ days...

Avery on my bed the other day. Not exactly flattering, but whatever....

hes really well groomed. And has good fashion sense, dont let the first picture fool you.

Ill have new pictures up soon, but better ones, trust me. Were a handsome couple.
He said it first. So shut up.
Weird.
Couple.
I hate him because hes horrible, but hes only horrible because hes wonderful.

Dont worry, my head is STILL on my shoulders, i understand that it may...and probably wont work out...but im taking it as it comes.

p.s. My model name will make you laugh. its Parrish. I have like...3 shoots set up for the remainder of this month.
hahahahah RAD.

(this is the DEEPEST entry ive ever made.....hahah)

Some new photos...

Wed, 08 Dec 2004 17:43:43 GMT

So i finally feel okay about smiling with a camera....

what it comes down to is if i SHOULD or not ;)

(do you like how different this post is from my last entry? I went deep to shallow/vain in about two seconds...bahahhahaha)

This is how it should be...

Mon, 29 Nov 2004 14:07:42 GMT

Right now, it all comes together.

RIGHT NOW.

I had thought that all i needed in life in order to be fulfilled and happy was to love someone, and have them love me back. More precisely i beleived that i needed to be in love with someone who was in love with me. I think ive just learned that that sort of thing is just something that makes life just that much sweeter.
Afterall, icing a rotting cake doesnt do much but hide the problem.

Ive lost any assurance for what i wanted for my future. Sure, i know that i want to go to school, earn a degree or two, and eventually make a career in the arts. But did i beleive that i could actually do it? For awhile there, i certainly didnt think i could. I dont know exactly what it was that made me lose faith in myself, it couldve, and probably was, a number of things. What I do know is that i lost myself completely.

I started absorbing myself in my relationship because it was the only thing in my life that i had confidence in, and thats a TERRIBLE state to be in. I was able to make a thousand distractions within my relationship that made it easy to completely disregard any responsibility for my life, or for myself. It wasnt fair to anyone.

With the relationship behind me, i was able to start facing the truth, slowly. For a week ive been saying to myself, and to everyone around me, "Okay, im single, but in love...and that's really okay." And i really WAS okay. I was able to come to grip with a few things, and spend time with some people that are definately positive influences in my life.

But holycow, i did NOT suspect something like this to happen. I was watching mean girls, and when i realized that it was 5 am and i was still wide awake (suprise, suprise), i started working on some art thing id been doing. I was thinking, and it all hit me at once. everything you just read hit me. At first i was just sitting there doing art, getting excited that i had come to some great conclusion, and then i got more and more excited. I stopped drawing. I couldnt stop smiling. then i started writing...as i wrote, the more i realized and the more alive i started feeling. I am SO alive right now, im more motivated and inspired than ive been in a very very very veerrrrrrry long time. And its incredible.

I dont know when i started dying, but i do know that after awhile id do the usual self reflection...and id see that i was kind of rotting. And i ignored it. At one point I didnt care much about anyone but myself. I lied, a lot. I weaseled myself out of situations i really shouldve took to head on. I took shelter in the most shallow comforts. Clothes, Vanity, the power of Manipulation, Money. Money did not help AT ALL. I had started doing what my mother used to do. I tried to use material things to make myself feel better, to make people like me, trust me, I used THINGS as comfort. I had been so incredibly fake, all my words and all of my promises: empty. Its like the blood circulation had been cut off from most of my brain, id gone retarded.

Ive really not done any good for myself at all. Id had feelings that my "life was at a standstill". I was right, but i didnt realize that before coming to a stop, my life had taken a turn for the worse. Like ive said, it was NOT a pretty place.

So this is what im going to do. Im going to go to school, starting this week. Im going to get a job, even if it means working at starbucks. Want to know why? because i KNOW that its what i need to be happy. I need to make something of myself. Today it will make me feel good, and eventually, after a ton of good days, bad days, mediocre days, a few GREAT and HORRIBLE days, It'll pay off. Im going to live, and live right. Im going to start making real, sincere efforts and ill have something to show for it.

As much as Im in love with Ian, and undeniably I would love to be with him, I can really appreciate what being broken up has already done. He is a wonderful person, he made a really good call for the both of us. I would be lucky to have a relationship like ours again. But for now, that just cant happen. I doubt either of us knew what kind of an effect this would end up having on me. But I guess that's how life works, isnt it?

Ahhhh Fresh air....

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 02:30:53 GMT

..or...perhaps just insomnia sufferers best friend: adreniline.
Either way i got very bored last night, did my makeup and took some pictures.
I thought some of them turned out pretty okay.

Does lighting change everyones eye color this drastically?

Some Like it Hot

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 01:48:20 GMT

So I applied right after I had joined the community but I guess my application Didn’t go through for some reason, or something else went wrong. Anyway..

basics:
[name] Crystal Gabrielle

[age] 18

[gender] female

[location] Seattle, WA

[# of piercings] 1

[# of tattoos] one very very large one in progress.

[all other mods] -

[about yourself] Goodness, just a girl trying to get by. I’m earning my AA right now, in the arts, and I plan to move to Chicago or stay put here on the west coast next year for school. Long story short I look for charm in people and in the things I do.
LOVE

[5 favorite bands]
1. World/Inferno Friendship Society
2. Nuetral Milk Hotel
3. Idiot Pilot
4. Autechre
5. Blackheart Eulogy

[5 favorite movies]
1. Waking Life
2. Lovers of the Arctic Circle
3. Dick Tracy
4. Garden State ( I didn’t even know what it was about when I went into the theatre)
5.The evil dead series

[5 favorite books/authors]
1. Hermann Hesse
2. Michael J. Behe
3. Oscar Wilde
4. Irvine Welsh
5. Nabakov

[5 favorite things (not people) ]
1. Hot Chocolate
2. Blankets (unless theyre scratchy)
3. my car, its a 1966 Volvo
4. Pickett (a stuffed panda wearing undies that i sleep with)
5. apple juice

HATE

[5 least favorite bands]
my chemical romance, joy division, new no doubt, and the obvious: blink 182 and good charlotte

[5 least favorite movies]
jackie chan movies, ummm...seriously dont know. i dont often make a point to see movies i dont think ill like

[5 least favorite things (not people) ]
bills, busy nights at the resturaunt after a bad day, dust bunnies, open water, moldy bread

OTHER

[where/who sent you here?]
hrmm, i think i was just browsing mod sites

[what can you add here?]
well im my own person...i think beyond having a tattoo that would be interesting to follow progress, it would be nice
[look through our members and tell us which two you most want to hump]
[promote the community somwhere else and give us the url here]

Id say "New York, brace yourself"

Tue, 19 Oct 2004 11:19:49 GMT

...but im pretty sure theyre used to slutty girlscouts.

Im going to New York for Halloween. For a World/Inferno show that is bound to be incredible. id go for longer, but im afraid that i need to be back in time to vote.

As hinted on, im being a girlscout. A slutty mcslutterson one. Its silly, and it makes me feel nuttier than a nut factory, but its fun.
David is going to be a fish. Ill show pictures of his costume when I get back.

Its coming along perfectly

Sun, 10 Oct 2004 09:53:43 GMT

I havent gotten work since the......19th or so of August...Ive been dying. But FINALLY we did my left side, and its been worth it.

(X posted in many places, sorry :x )

And we keep on treckin'/x-posted

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 21:22:05 GMT

Alright well finally, kids....i got more work done. On wednesday We did my back, and on Thursday, instead of doing my stomach/hips/or ass, as I had been told we were going to do, we did my right arm, which i was admittedly avoiding for whatever reason.

I couldnt get very good shots of my back once it was less red/more relaxed..so...sorry.

(again, any weird colors, like yellow, red or greyish black, that you see, is not bruising. Because were doing this piece pretty freehand, joby has to do drawings with a varied colored of sharpies, and seeing as how theyre permanent, well...you get the idea)

my back:

my RIGHT arm:

We're going to tattoo on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday of next week. Were hoping to get through all of the line work before i leave for Cincinnati/Chicago.

And the adventure continues

Thu, 12 Aug 2004 21:39:57 GMT

I went in yesterday and got a nice hunk of work done on my back. Today im going in...were doing a number of things, maybe not all of these ..but a couple of these...

my ass
my ribs
the rest of my back
my stomach

im nervous. Wish me luck.

more needle-skin action XXX?...no...just sweet love, but deftinately X posted

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 19:56:07 GMT

(will NOT exceed bandwidth-pictures visible inside also)

alright....so i went in today and even though i had a few.....hold ups....everything went fine and I have my collar bone line work and a bit of my shoulderblade done.

and a not so good shot of the back.

Im trying to decide now, if i want to WAIT to do any color until i get the rest of it done in outline.

X-posted///pretty pretty arm love

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 07:57:08 GMT

Alright, so i got two hours of work done on my tattoo and i thought you guys would like to see it.

mmmmmmmMMMMMmmmm Leftovers

and then on wednesday im going to go get my collar bone started. And next Tuesday were going to do coloring.

The start of a skin and ink relationship:

Sat, 17 Jul 2004 18:33:22 GMT

**Hey you guys! Remember all of that tattoo work that I'm supposed to get done? Well I start in about.. *looks at watch* 8 days.
I decided to have my first session on my birthday. Its going to cost $400....hopefully ill get birthday money from people.

Anyway....im REALLY looking forward to all of this, its going to be beautiful....

THIS IS NOT TRIBAL!!!!!!

OBSERVE THE TEXTURE:

somewhere around 142 hours. ahhhh....so nice.

Fresh Meat

Tue, 29 Jun 2004 23:32:05 GMT

Alright so here we go...

Dont mind the dirty dishes!!!

WAY angry. how silly of me

Sorry if there were too many...